Going to Vancouver in less than a week. Sooo stoked on that. Better be damn good beach weather or I'ma knock someone out.
Working alot. I got promoted to Keyholder at Aldo. Yaaaay. Kind of wishing I was working more shifts at Jubilations but dumb Aldo scheduling...............
I miss Charlotte. Sophie would have loved to play with her.
Flying home to Fort Mac for the talent competition and some bonding time with select people Aug 7th-10th. Kind of excited, kind of not. Blah. Still hate that place for certain reasons...
I miss school. I can't wait to go back to everything in the fall. It's so hard getting time to sing through all my repetoire and get any dance time in with working 2 jobs. I feel so faraway from everything. And it's going to be so awesome to see everyone again and have our KINK party the first weekend back!! So excited for that!!! And meeting the newbie firsties. I was so intimidated by the 2nd years last year at orientation....
Felicia keeps eating Sophie's kitten food, ERGH! I don't know how the hell to get her to stop!!! PLUS she eats her own. She's going to be a big fatty. I try spraying her but she always goes back when I'm not looking.... sneak.


That's all.

Getting my tattoo on Friday afternoon.
The dude is this wicked nice Australian who really helped me figure out a good design for what I wanted. I'm getting the theatre masks, on the left side of my lower back ... basically on my hip there ... And on the top it's going to say 'All the world's a stage' and along the bottom, 'Sans everything.' Both of these quotations are from the beginning and end, respectively, of Jacques' sonnet in Shakespeare's As You Like it. I love the entire last line, 'Sans teeth, sans eyes, sans taste, sans everything' but it would look a little weird and would be too much writing. It basically describes that in the end, as we age and eventually lose more and more of ourselves, what remains is our soul / spirit / essence / aura that will forever remain throughout eternity even after we are long gone.  And as for All the world's a stage... well, just look around and open your eyes. ;)
I'm so excited! I'll post a picture when it's done.

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I'm so fucking stupid sometimes.

And at least 2 out of 5 times I always say the wrong thing.

Fuck.

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Waiting , waiting, waiting, waiting..

Always waiting.

I'm in my new apartment! Pics are on facebook! 

I don't know if I've mentioned on here or not, but for the past few months I've been having dreams about a white kitten.. named Bianca. I have a feeling I'm supposed to get her. And I dream of her and Felicia being together! I'm on the search for new litters in the Edmonton area, so let me know if you know of anyone with kittens for sale! I would love for Felicia to have some company while I'm out of the house. And I love cats. I can't wait to add to my brood!

It was rainy today, which kind of sucked, but it gave reason for me to have a bath!! It was so nice to have one again finally. Danielle's place only has a really tiny shower so it felt GREAT to soak into those bubbles and relax... ahhhhh

I start at Aldo on Tuesday. I'm excited! Except I'm definately not making as much as I was at Shoppers in Fort McMurray.. but then again .... it was Fort McMurray. I'm also waiting to hear back from some tanning/spa salons for receptionist part-time and then I'll also hopefully be able to fit in a shift or two a week at Jubilations serving. Should be fun. Crazy work hours this summer though that's for sure.

It's looking good in regards to Harrison being here come June. (And for the rest of the summer) ... I don't want to jynx anything though but I'm trying to stay positive. It would be so, so nice...

I've been watching so much of The Girls Next Door. I love that show. I think Holly is my favourite but I honestly love them all! Bridget is so cute and I love her getting excited over the smallest things and I love her pup and kitty! And Kendra is so retarded but that's why I love her! She makes it hilarious because she's so different from the other two. And Hef is sweet and I love his laugh. What a man!!

Welllllllllll .. that's about it for now.
PEACE

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 I got gel nails for the first time. :)
They're nice. I like them. It was cheap too, only 30 bucks! A guy did them... kind of unexpected. He did a great job though.

Moving in to my apartment this weekend! I'm so excited. And next week for the FIRST time I'll have time to go to IKEA!!!!!! GAH!!! Now that school and rehearsals from 9am-11pm at night are over, I hardly know what to do with myself!!

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I had a dream last night that I did E. .... I've never done the drug in my life, and yet in my dream I experianced the effects of it. Fucked or what? ... It was crazy.. I was so happy and loose, yet I couldn't focus on stuff and new that it was the drugs but my body kept going crazy and my thoughts were everywhere.
It was soooo bizarre.

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Done 'A Month In The Country'!
I was so excited and anxious for it to be over and yet every scene I came on in, I was going .. "this is the LAAAAST time I'll do this one!!!" hha.. funny how that is.

ON TO TITANIC. SOO READY FOR IT.
Read through with the director tomorrow! WOOHOO

Grandmother
Owl
Sarah Stevenson
Beth Bailey
Hermione Grainger
Fantine
Sister Margaretta
Roxie Hart
Lily St. Regis 
Owl (take 2)
Scantily Clad Woman <-- possibly my favourite titled role ever...............
Luciana
Belle
Roxie Hart (take 2)
Katya
Lightholler 

Sooooooo . ...
We found out our season for next year.
Our 'big' musical is Thoroughly Modern Millie 
...... Yeaaahhh..

We're also doing "Where's Charley" which seems interesting enough, it's an older one but the plot seems kind of cute..

Andddd ... a "new play" being written by Stewart Lemoine, specifically for our class apparently or something. 

I feel kind of ripped off. I came to this program because it's a musical theatre program and they do 3 mainstage musicals a year. And now all of a sudden we're getting one taken away, and doing a musical where there's only 2 female leads. This year they did Little Women, Good News, and Hot Mikado... a plethora of female roles!!!!! And we have soo many talented girls in our class.
I don't know ....

I really didn't expect to find out this early. Now it's going to be in the back of my mind and influencing the realistic plays and Titanic. 
At least I don't have to wonder about it anymore I guess.

... sigh 

Oh yeah... it's my birthday in an hour. It doesn't really feel like it.
I'm excited to go to The Cheesecake cafe tomorrow though and then PARTY and DRINK MY FACE OFF. 
... Much needed.

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 I'm playing Katya, the young maid/servant girl in our realistic play, "A Month In The Country" that goes up in 4 weeks (AH.) 

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 Just watched the Oscars. I only got 12 guesses right out of 24. Oh well. I didn't see like any of the movies anyway. And those random animanted short films and documentaries always get me. I always like seeing the dresses and stuff, and the flashbacks they had of previous years were neat.

It was Felicia's 1st birthday today. Got her a few goods, fed her some milk, and made her wear a birthday bow. It was good.

Got back yesterday morning from Vancouver. The break was not long enough. Fuck. I'm NOT looking forward to 4 hours of dance tomorrow... I'm not looking forward to going back to classes in general... I have to keep myself busy doing stuff though, because when I just sit around I get really, REALLY down thinking of being in Vancouver with Harrison. It's around 55 more days until we'll see each other again ....
No comment.......................
Yeah.. I won't even go there.
:(

My 20th birthday is in almost a week.

I'm going to see Beauty and the Beast at the Citadel next Sunday.

Mom and bro are coming to Edmonton on Tuesday, it'll be nice to see them both.

Finished The Boleyn Inheritance, really liked it... and now I've started something totally different; The Memory Keeper's Daughter. Only a chapter in but it's pretty interesting so far.

I don't. want. school. tomorrow.

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WE GOT  OUR SCORES TODAY FOR TITANIC!!!!! YEAAHHHHHH!!! I was soooo excited, seriously. I can't WAIT to do a show. It has been so long. I think because I've had to actually wait, it's made me even MORE appreciative of it! 
There's this crazy like 7 part harmony chord, and it's split into soprano 1/2 (I'm a soprano 1), alto 1/2, tenor, baritone, bass ... and then there's a HIGH C above ledger lines.. like .. yeah... just to make it a little easier to understand: The high note of 'Think of Me' from Phantom of the Opera is a B, so this note is a whole tone higher than that.. Janet was like, Sarah, you will be singing the high C. JUST ME!! I was so embarassed to sing it by myself, and I was scared it was going to screech, but it went good, and I was proud that she asked me!!! We also have to write out all the phoentics for the lyrics, which is crazy.. I've never done that for a show ever before, but I LOVE learning new stuff from directors and it's exciting and neat!! 
Gahhhhh I can't wait to start it! We're getting "roles" assigned after the realistic plays I guess, so that won't be for quite a while, but I'm still content with just learning the choral stuff for now, TOTALLY CONTENT!!! :D

But nevermind Titanic,
I'M LEAVING TOMORROW MORNING!!!!!!!!
In like .... 12 hours! I have to wake up at 3AM (disgusting) because I have to shower and do the last minute packing shit before taking my cab at 4:30 and then my flight departs at 6:50!!! I arrive in Vancouver, on Valentine's Day, at 8:30 in the morning .... so we'll have the whole day together.. I can't wait. And I have a little surprise up my sleeve ;) ... GAH ... We weren't able to be together last year for v-day so this year will be extra special. And the first year we were together we had a show for B&B, so for once we'll get to actually do something! 

And I have to shout out to Kayla right now, to agree with the fact that a bubble bath, wine, and a great book is AMAZING. Mmm ... And I definately have a new favourite wine, thanks Kayla!! 

WELL
I gotta go PACK!!! I haven't packed annnyyyything yet!!! 

AHHH
:D

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1 week till Vancouverrrr
1 month till my 20th birthdaayyyyy

20. Ah. Fuck.

Actually it's technically not even Thursday anymore but whatever.
...
I went through alot of my old (actual) journals tonight.
Yeaaaaahhhhh..
Hil-arity.

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 Heading back out to Van city in 12 days. So excited. Ayah is living there now so we can FINALLY have some bonding together! I only got to see her ONCE during the holidays which was seriously sad. 
Aaaannnnddddd.... it's still in early thought process, but it's about an 80% chance I'll be in Van for the summer. And Robyn, Becky, (and perhaps even Kelsey!) will be there too since that's where they're from, so it would be AWESOME to be able to spend some of summer with them!!!! They all keep convincing me (along with Harry of course) to come there.... so we'll see! 
Classes are busy busy busy as usual. Our Chekhov scenes are coming up now .... yeah .. that was interestign. I had a complete breakdown in class during this excercise Ken got me to do. He had all the guys holding my arms and legs, restraining me, because my character is supposed to be repressed and contained and stuff, and I hated it, I couldn't move, and I felt trapped, and it juts brought up all these other emotions and I lost it and started bawling and still had to get through the fucking monologue. It helped, but it put me in a really weird place.... it was a hard class.....
Gah. Ken Brown scares me. But I love him.
Oh, and for our 1st year musical... we're doing Titanic! Not the MOVIE one obviously ... it's sort of lesser known, but it actually won a Tony for best musical in 1997. The music is pretty good. Meh, I'm kind of indifferent towards it... I don't REALLY love it, but I don't hate it either. It will be fun to start rehearsals, I can't wait.

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 I hate my bangs already. I've only had them for about a month. They are so annoying and I just want them to GROW OUT ALREADY. Stupid impulse haircut ideas......

I have a splitting headache... I haaateee it when I FINALLY get out of a long day of classes and have to deal with a headache on my time off.
Gross.

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Yeaaaahhh ... 4 hours of dance in a row this morning was NOT a great way to start off the week.

I think I'm experiancing my first 2 day hangover?? Yikes. I might just be dehydrated. I never drink enough water, damnit!

Is it reading week yet?

Sigh

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Death is such a fucked up notion.
I am in the weirdest state of mind now..

I was stalking Facebook as usual, and a couple of my friends on there had r.i.p Rachel... I went to the girls page through one of my other friends... and it's just... so fucked.. I mean she was doing those survey things a week before her death, talking about her future and weird things like that.. her page is exactly the same as anyone else's... I don't know if that even makes any sense, but it's just soooo incredibly fucked up to think, what if someone told her at Christmas - this is your last Christmas. Do you know you'll die in a week? Or as her years went on, not realizing that her 'death day' basically passed every year? In reality, all of our 'death days' pass by each year, just like birthdays and holidays... it's put weird thoughts in my head, and it just reminds me again how quick and instantly death can occur to any one of us.

Um... wow... morbo .. I didn't mean to depress anyone or anything, so I guess I won't just leave it at that..

I'm back in Edmonton and the holidays were great. Fast as always but nice. I spent some of the time in Fort Mac, here in Edmonton, and Vancouver. It was so nice to be with Harrison as always, but just as hard to go through the goodbye process. It never gets easier, really. Every goodbye is hard for different reasons. The funnest night I'd have to say in Vancouver was the last night, when we met up with Brendan, Jonathan and Lexi! We played Cranium forever! That whole day was great except the trecherous walk to Bon's Breakfast which didn't leave me feeling too well for a while after. :(

Going back to school today was odd, it felt like I had almost never been gone. And I got home and it felt like I had already been back at it for weeks. We're doing Chekhov monologues and scenes now, ehhh. I just can't wait until we start working on the year end musical. Hopefully we'll find out what we're doing soon.

Harrison VERY GRACIOUSLY lent me his DS, and I've been playing Zelda Phantom Hourglass on it. It's awesome! Very much like Windwaker! Oh how I love Zelda games. :)

I also started another new book, 'The Boleyn Inheritance,' a sort of sequel to 'The Other Boleyn Girl' which I read back in September. I love the author! Her name is Philippa Gregory. It's all historical fiction so it's super interesting.

That's all for now.

Ohhhh ... and I am SOOO glad I'm out of Fort McMurray. Being back there just made me remember all the catty, stupid, CHILDISH gossiping that goes on around there, and how everything there, even the stuff that was great like the theatre and everything, is falling to pieces. I left at a good time! I don't even think I'll be going there to work this summer! YAY. Fuck Fort Mcmurray.

PEACE.

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MERRY CHRISTMAS LOVAAAAHHHS!!!
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My time in Fort Mac has gone by soooo incredibly fast. Even more so than last year. I'm working tomorrow for Boxing Day (Kill me RIGHT now) so it's really going to suck but I'm heading back to Edmonton on the 27th and will be there with Harrison and my brosky until the 30th, then heading to Vancouver until the 5th or 6th of Jan 2008!!!! (I can't believe I'm saying 2008!!!!)

The haul!:
- A new digital camera. (I loooove this and totally didn't expect it.)
- 2 new very sexy tops from Le Chateau
- Lost Season 1 (Just in time as I'm finishing Sex and the City!)
- James Blunt CD
- A matching necklace, bracelet, and earring set
- A really chic scarf/wrap
- Earmuffs and driving gloves
- 3 (!) new pairs of pyjamas!
- 2 new books... 'The Memory Keeper's Daughter' and 'The Boleyn Inheritance'
- A calendar with quotes
- 2 mini calendars with kittens awweeeee
- Cute headbands
- 2 pretty beaded necklaces
- Harry Potter 5 DVD
- Bath salts
- A crossword book - I love crosswords!!! :D
- A $150 coffee maker... from my dad..... WTF. I don't even drink coffee. .......... My dad always gives me the weirdest presents.......


Felicia is sleeping on my bed. She has a red bow on for holiday spirit. I'm surprised she's actually kept it on for most of the day! She got her own stocking as well for her first Christmas, and an assortment of little gifties/toys. I'm so happy I brought her home with me. <3

Merry Christmas to all of you!

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